Caleb is up this weekend. We went to Teresa's Resale, and he found a sweet little romper for you. Pink of course! I have a feeling that if God does see fit to bless us with you, you will be so sick of pink, that you will be a Tom-Boy! I found you two bibs, one says Daddy's Little Girl, to which I have a feeling that that is exactly what you will be. Speaking of which, today is his birthday. The big double quatro! Happy birthday! And speaking of birthdays, I am 3 days late in wishing you (on the blog), a happy half birthday. It is hard to believe we are already 2 months in to this process, but still only know about as much as we did on day 1.
It is so hard not to think about you every minute. I wonder how you are, if you are fed, bathed, did you go to your May 5th dr appt, etc. I wonder if you like to cuddle, have you started eating foods and if so, what are your favorites, do you like baths, what makes you giggle or smile. If you do come to us, how will that transition be. Will you like being around the day care babies. I feel like a very first time mom-to-be, even though I have almost 20 years experience with my own kids, not to mention all of the babies that I have helped care for since I was 8 or 9. Several day care parents have referred to me as the "Baby Whisperer". I hope that holds true if you knock on our door.
God bless you baby. I may not get to spend this first Mother's Day with you, but I will hopefully have my first Mother's Day with you next year. I love you and pray for God's protection for you.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Gifts and heart ache
May 6th - Your Nannie to be talked to a friend about you. The friend, Kathryn, ended up giving Nan a bag full of blankets and clothes for you. I stare at this bag in disbelief. It doesn't seem possible that we could be recipients of a child of God. And a GIRL none the less!!!! I am so used to blues and cars, and to see this sea of pink and flowers is hard to fathom. As I looked at each item, touching it and thinking of you, it makes me very nervous. I am getting so attached to you, and I don't even know if or when you will be ours. I am also feeling quite guilty over praying that we receive you and that in doing so, a mother will be losing her daughter. I don't think I can handle getting any more items for you at this time. I will be so heartbroken if they decide not to remove you and place you with us. I know that the best possible thing would be for your birth mother to get some education classes, and learn how to better provide for you. They also need to find jobs that allow them to earn more income so they can get a car and make sure you are getting the proper medical treatment you need.
I love you and pray that you are safe and well.
I love you and pray that you are safe and well.
God's timing
As you grow up, you will learn the phrase "God's timing". This is hard to swallow. God's timing is not always our timing. God, however, always knows best. It's amazing how that works. We have had no contact with CPS or updated information on you, yet we have continued to pray. Matthew and Caleb ask about you. Our close friends that we have told ask about you. We ask about you. Still nothing.
FINALLY! On Thursday, May 5, we finally received the phone call from CPS. They wanted to know if we are still interested in having you placed with us. YES! YES! We gave your caseworker our background information and she is running the checks on all of us. She wasn't able to give me an exact timeframe as to when we would get you, or even if we would get you for sure, but she did say that once they are ready to remove you, she needs to make sure she has a place ready for you with cleared background checks. She said, "I am ordering your background checks, if you know what that means." I sure hope I know what that means, as I am already attached to you. I have looked at your pictures almost daily. I have prayed for you daily. Tammy (You will learn much more about Miss Sue once you join our family.) had just asked about you the weekend before. This falls in to the timing thing again. As you get older, it will become quite ironic how someone will ask or comment about something, and then God follows thru with an action in regards to that something. We have alerted all that already know about you of the phone call, and prayers are kicking in to overdrive for you baby. We love you, and can't wait for you to hopefully join our family.
FINALLY! On Thursday, May 5, we finally received the phone call from CPS. They wanted to know if we are still interested in having you placed with us. YES! YES! We gave your caseworker our background information and she is running the checks on all of us. She wasn't able to give me an exact timeframe as to when we would get you, or even if we would get you for sure, but she did say that once they are ready to remove you, she needs to make sure she has a place ready for you with cleared background checks. She said, "I am ordering your background checks, if you know what that means." I sure hope I know what that means, as I am already attached to you. I have looked at your pictures almost daily. I have prayed for you daily. Tammy (You will learn much more about Miss Sue once you join our family.) had just asked about you the weekend before. This falls in to the timing thing again. As you get older, it will become quite ironic how someone will ask or comment about something, and then God follows thru with an action in regards to that something. We have alerted all that already know about you of the phone call, and prayers are kicking in to overdrive for you baby. We love you, and can't wait for you to hopefully join our family.
CPS called
CPS has now been called and notified of your situation. It is around March 20th, give or take a day. We hope to hear something soon. Please Lord, keep her safe, fed, and getting the medical treatment she needs. We love you.
We want her!
We called your Grandma told her that we are all in agreement, and we want you to join our family. Now we just have to wait. "Just". That word is huge. God bless you baby and keep you safe.
Discovery
We first found out about you in February 2011. A sweet little girl that needs a safe and nurturing home. We had a family meeting to make sure everyone is on board with you being a wonderful addition. Everyone answered with a resounding yes. There are many questions, and little to no answers. We don't know much about you yet, other than you are almost 4 months old, and possibly have kidney problems. You have lots of new friends and family praying for you. God bless you baby, we love you and pray for your safekeeping.
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